A court heard that a twin baby boy was buried wearing a woollen garment that his killer Lucy Letby had chosen as a present for him.
Child E’s mother testified at Manchester Crown Court that she was “sickened” by that choice and that she “deeply regrets” letting Letby bathe him as part of the mourning service at the neonatal section of the Countess of Chester Hospital.
After injecting Child E with air in August 2015, the rogue nurse tried to poison Child F with insulin the following shift in an effort to murder him.
Entering the witness box in Court 7 at Manchester Crown Court to give her victim personal statement, the twins’ mother said: “On the 3rd of August 2015 our world shattered when we encountered evil disguised as a caring nurse.
“Losing (Child E) was the most difficult thing we have ever experienced. The heartbreak and shock left me feeling confused and numb.
“How could (Child E) collapse so suddenly after spending the day cuddling with us?”
She said “guilt consumed me” when the police informed her nearly three years later that a nurse had intentionally caused her son’s death.
She said: “In the neo-natal environment, vulnerability prevails as you rely on the expertise and knowledge of others to make decisions for your babies, especially as a first-time parent.
“We followed the instructions given to us diligently, even asking for permission to touch our babies during visitation. It was a tense and unnatural environment, and we were afraid that deviating from the instructions would hinder our boys’ progress.
“We were robbed of precious time with our baby boy after he died. We were denied the opportunity to spend private moments with him, having to grieve openly in the presence of Lucy and the neo-natal unit staff in nursery one.
“Lucy bathed (Child E), an action I deeply regret, and dressed him in a woollen gown. He was buried in that gown, a gift from the unit chosen by Lucy.
“I feel sickened by the choice we made. Not a single day passes without distress over this decision.”
She described the twins as “extraordinary miracles” after she and her husband had unsuccessful IVF procedures.
The twins’ mother continued: “Lucy was aware of our journey and deliberately caused significant harm and cruelty to our boys.
“No children in this world were more wanted and loved than them.
“Lucy presented herself as kind, caring, and soft-spoken. Now I know it was all an act, a sadistic abuse of power that has left me unable to trust anyone.”
Child F has been diagnosed with severe learning difficulties as a result of the insulin poisoning, she said.
“He is without his best friend, his other half,” she continued. “We have essentially grieved for both of our boys and the future we had planned.
“Lucy abused the power she held. She claims we had a good relationship and got along well, I was a vulnerable, grieving parent doing my best to get through each day. There was no real relationship.
“Lucy is right. She killed them on purpose because she was not good enough to care for them. She has preyed on vulnerable babies, who couldn’t stop her, it’s cowardly and sickening, and I feel like my boys were a just a pawn in her sick twisted game.
“I would like to thank Lucy for taking the stand and showing the court what she is really like once the ‘nice Lucy’ mask slips.
“It was honestly the best thing she could have done to ensure our boys got the justice they deserve. We have been living a nightmare, but for me, it ends today. I refuse to wake up with my first thought about my boys being harmed.
“Lucy no longer has control over our lives. She holds no power or relevance in anybody’s life. She is nothing. We have all been robbed of so much.”