Following the disclosure of his affair with a younger male colleague, Phillip Schofield has admitted he is terrified to leave the house.
In a recent interview with The Sun, he stated that he was now getting by “hour by hour” and that he worried being spat on in public.
The former This Morning host, 61, previously claimed that after confessing to the affair, he had “lost everything” and that the consequences had had a “catastrophic effect” on his mind.
“I don’t know when I’ll be able to step out the door,” he said in a new interview with The Sun that was published on Friday.
“I don’t have any spirit. My friends tell me, ‘It will get better’. It won’t. Not now. Not this one.”
He added: “I am getting by hour by hour. I have got my girls and my friends.”
Schofield admitted to the “unwise but not illegal” connection last week and resigned from ITV as a result. He was also sacked by his talent agency, YMU.
While denying having “groomed” the man, he claimed to be “utterly broken and ashamed” in his first interviews following his departure from the broadcaster and This Morning.
Schofield thanked his daughters Ruby and Molly for “guarding him” in an interview with the BBC’s Amol Rajan.
“Last week, if my daughters hadn’t been there then I wouldn’t be here. And they’ve guarded me and won’t let me out of their sight, it’s like a weird numbness,” he said.
“I know that’s a selfish point of view. But you come to a point where you just think, how much are you supposed to take?
“If all of those people that write all that stuff, do they ever think that there’s actually a person at the other end?”
Referring to the Love Island host who took her own life in February 2020, he added: “I think I understand how Caroline Flack felt.
He said he saw “nothing ahead” of him and he had to talk about his career in television “in the past tense”.
He said: “It is relentless, and it is day after day, after day after day.
“If you don’t think that that is going to have the most catastrophic effect on someone’s mind – do you want me to die? Because that’s where I am.
“I have lost everything.”